What Do You Live For?

This will probably be one of the most confusing posts I have ever put up, maybe not, but most likely it will. So I was talking to my friend the other night about what we all live for. The answer is obvious: God. But she gave another answer that I also think is true, which is living for others. Which in my mind I think is also right with the incorporation of doing good work as Jesus did. This will come in handy later....

So if I was asked this question in high school I would automatically respond with the answer God, our heavenly father. But this year altered everything for me. In high school I was friends and trusted a few people who were extremely into their faith and helped me through everything. In the course of 3 years everything changed for not only them but for me also. I started watching what they did very carefully and making up my own decisions. I have never lost my first answer,(first paragraph) but instead I would've replied with the second answer to help others. I have always helped others no matter what the case was or even if I disliked that person or whatever. So the point is NOW I am realizing what I need to live for, not JUST helping others but knowing God and serving him BY helping others. I was never really wrong, but I wasn't praying enough and having conversations with God or asking him for help with any of my problems, I was looking for alternate answers. Which is wrong lol

Now onto the other things I have to say. I won't be posting this on face book because I don't want to offend anyone. The point of this paragraph is people can have a huge part in decision making. I was around these girls all last semester and they went to youth groups and all of this stuff but they never showed that they loved God through their actions. They would talk about the other one behind their back, etc. I am not getting into it. But the point is they would invite me to do all this stuff and I would turn them down, not because I didn't want to go because I did, but I didn't want to be associated with those types of girls I guess. There's more to the story but I can't pull out my whole heart here. I know that they are human, but I just met them the other day and it happened again and they just came back from a Christian retreat almost and it's like the learned nothing. But the fact is, if you are saying "Hey I am a Christian" you need to act like one, because you are representing Jesus to everyone.Even to people who think they know where they stand and you can alter that big time especially if they are new to God. If it wasn't for those girls scaring me I would have probably learned so much at those Youth Groups and things like that, and it is something I regret because it is partially my fault for not going anyway but at the same time I felt like the whole room would be filled with people like them.

I don't know...everything is so confusing to me but this year I am changing and finding my own youth group, a new one where I can fit in easily with my beliefs. I just wanted to share my thoughts with basically myself and twitter because no one follows me on twitter but 20 people :) By the way this is not made to offend anyone. If it does..

(c) Sara Warren